the destructive power of western culture and language suffusing everything in my life. the destruction of my own gaze into a western one.
i can't live without feeling constantly like we lost, we are conquered, and that this feeling will never go away. the frustration at the parts of myself forever lost to this even as i write in english on a primarily western website shaped by a very western internet, in full awareness that i do not know how to access such concepts and spaces indigenously.
i need to read some books and relearn my mother tongue. i need help.
If it helps I am the most whitebread ass guy possible and I hate it here to. Even my southern god 'n trump family aren't happy with it. We feel the same and we are technically the winning team.
The world is changing faster and faster and the old power steuctures are struggling to adapt. Now is the best time to be feeling that disconent. Things have been real bad for a long time but so many forces are now at play that evey bit of organizing done now stands to have outsized effects.